under the title category 'Life'

I put this under category 'Life'.
does anyone ever search under the "Life" category? I think they'd rather go for music, or drama, or entertainment... who needs to search for Life? it's everywhere, and honestly, I think people sometimes tire of hearing about it.
yet they can't get enough of it.


I keep waiting for an email back. with pictures of sunrises from Germany.

they don't come. but I keep hoping.

I'm ever hopeful.
I was hopeful for two years for Robin. I'm not even afraid to say his name anymore.
It's not even sacred anymore.
But ego really kills you know...

and I'm happy about one thing at least...
I've stopped trying to pour out my love or my rage (just about equal at this point, to whatever level they used to be) on him.
He doesn't deserve my rage. Nor does he deserve my love.

so, I let it go.
and instead of feeling unsatisfied with myself because I didn't verbally and justfyingly throw-up all my anger on Robin via email, I just kept it simple, businesslike, and quite adequately as ego-less as I could get.

and... I felt good. for once. about the whole thing.